Saudade

Do you ever hear a song that takes you back to a moment? There’s just this polaroid of the moment that comes to mind where you remember listening to the song. Me, at age 15 vs. me, at probably age 2 I see my choir on my first year there, doing hokey hand motions and singing…

Bless This Beach

Sometimes the last thing you want to do is feel joy because the first thing you want to do is make sure it doesn’t disappear. Don’t screw it up, they whisper. And they’re not even real, physical people. They’re in your head. You’re not a schizophrenic, but just a really lost girl. A girl whose…

uphill

The worst thing about being happy, I’ve found, is the terror coming with it. You’d think when you are blessed in a way you’ve prayed so much for, you’d finally find peace. You expect to dance to jazzy ukulele chords, sprinting uphill in the perfectly breezy sunshine, reaching the top and eagerly going home for…