The One About Blankie

About a month ago, I announced I would be attending Wheaton College in the Fall, and God has confirmed the calling there in a number of ways. One of the ways was through writing a certain application essay. I was still deciding on schools at the time, and this essay for some reason gave me…

The Night-Watches

This one’s for the night-watchers. The ones who can’t sleep because their bodies refuse to calm down. The ones who can’t sleep because their life refuses to calm down. The ones who can’t sleep because someone else can’t calm down. The ones who won’t because they feel the responsibility and weight of the above reasons….

Dear Heartbreak • spare words

Dear Heartbreak, You are temporary Both in the finite sense Because you may end in a few months or years, And in the eternal Because you cannot enter Heaven anymore. Because if you are there even for a short time, You will be mended eventually By the Great Grafter. He will tie you to another…

Congrats! You get to hold me accountable!

So this summer, my goal is to start writing posts at least once every two weeks! The aim is to work towards posting every week . I like writing, but not enough that it comes easily to me. Rambling, however, certainly does…so welcome to your biweekly ramble!  [We’ll see how long THIS lasts…] Have you no shame?…

As “little” as I can say

It really is hard for me to write about God, since I begin to feel so insecure about myself when I do. And that is so, so wrong. Because I am experiencing the deepest reaches of Him every single day, and that should never make me insecure. It needs to fill every single inch of…

uphill

The worst thing about being happy, I’ve found, is the terror coming with it. You’d think when you are blessed in a way you’ve prayed so much for, you’d finally find peace. You expect to dance to jazzy ukulele chords, sprinting uphill in the perfectly breezy sunshine, reaching the top and eagerly going home for…

Bittersweet Mystery

(“idk”, a drawing I made on May 11th, 2016) I hugged her as if she was me from a year ago. A year ago, I was crying on the eve of my 16th birthday. A year ago, I’d not only left a place I called home, but I had to let go of a story that…

Dark Clay

Lori Roeleveld is one of my favorite Christian writers because her blog posts always encourage me to not just learn how to make it through a day as a Christian. She reminds me in her words that this world will pass away. She reminds me I’m not strong enough. She reminds me we all are…

Charlie, Linus, Grace, and Love.

“Can anyone tell me what Christmas is really all about?!” Christmastime is here and for me and my American friends, nothing says Christmas like the Charlie Brown special. If you haven’t seen it, I recommend you take a moment to find it on Youtube somewhere, or do your best to hunt it down and buy it…

Learning to wait in Salem for Zion

“Day 1 of emptying old crates to move: I found my old Monica doll and a Zhu Zhu hamster that still works after 2-3 years.” (from a social media post I made October 16th, 2015) It’s the first from the old “Discovery” photo series I did on social media while preparing to move from Europe back…

My Testimony

This Easter Sunday, I was baptized. I was asked beforehand to write my testimony out, to read in front of my church congregation. I felt like sharing it on here too, since it was jotted out in a writers’ journal I had, when I didn’t know what I could even write for this day. I…